anxiety blocking abundance
I got paid today.
Now, normally this is a good thing, right? And of course, it is.
However, this time I became extremely aware of all the anxiety that it also produced.
Almost immediately, the anxiety flooded in...
"Where did this come from?"
"Is this my paycheck this early?
"That's a different amount than I expected"
"What do I need to take care of first"
You've been there, right?
While I'm pretty sure I've always done this with every paycheck but the awareness didn't come out of nowhere.
See, I finished this book, You are a Badass at Making Money by Jen Sincero, earlier this year. It was all about recognizing the energy we create around money and finances with our thought processes.
Your anxiety is blocking your abundance.
Everything we do also has an emotion attached to it. it may be fear, it may be happiness, it may be anger or jealousy. However, most of the time we have such a negative view of emotions overall that we would rather ignore emotion and act like it doesn't exist. The thing about it though, is that when we ignore our emotions we also ignore important messages that our past experiences, our consciousness, our spirit, and our body are trying to communicate with us to help us use the energy of our emotions to grow, transform, and learn.
Our energy, or our emotions, go from us to the Earth or The Universe, communicating what we want and don't want, ultimately creating our reality.
This is why they say to be midnful of your words because your reality is being created by what you put out with your thoughts, emotions, feelings, and mindsets, they communicate what you want your reality to be.
I recognized that I prayed for money specifically (more specifically money for pizza 🍕😆). The money came to me on the same day, within an hour or two, and before I could even express gratitude for it I was pushing it away. I was giving it to bills, and people, and everything but what I asked the Universe to send it to me for. I was telling the Universe, "no thank you".
I've been saying, for what seems like my whole life, that I am always taken care of, whatever I want or need I get it. But as a result of the influence of circumstances, environment, and just life, while I kept saying I am always taking care of, my actions were communicating something different.
Think of it like this, if every single time you went to visit your friend they were in a high anxiety state, and I mean panic attack mode: they can't sit still, they keep saying they want you there but also saying things that make you unsure if that's true or not. How often would you want to visit that friend? How long would you stay if that was every single interaction with them? It is the same with anything that you are attempting to attract in your life.
If you are attemptimg to attract more supportive friends you have to stop talking about how dirty people have done you in the past and what kind of friends you used to have and how no one around you supports you. You have to be willing to meet new people and take your confidence with you, knowing that you will now be led to people who are good for you, even if they are only here to stay for a season.
If you want to attract more healthy love in your life you have to change the energy you have around love (tend to that heart chakra!). When your partner does something to trigger you, you have to acknowledge and mend the trigger before it destroys your relationship. You have to release the fear that everyone will always leave you or cheat on you, or do you wrong.
If you want to create more abundance of wellness and health you have to stop saying how sick you feel all of the time. Add more healthy habits to your routine, a little at a time and stop being afraid of beign seen in the gym or walking around your neighborhood. Those fears are only keeping your health in the same state and making you feel bad about the changes you're not making.
Your emotions are not bad, they are simply communicators of where you can do more work on yourself, areas to grow, what previous experiences you may not have healed from that are ready for your attention. Sit with them, journal, and pray about what new messages you can create to shape your new reality.
To be honest, this wasn't the first post I had plan for my return to blogging but I knew as I was journaling about my anxiety in my money journal that this needed to go up immediately.
So, I'm not sure who this is for but if it was for you find me on Insta or something and DM me and let me know. I can't wait to chat!
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